this isn't goodbye, it's 'see you on mondays' 💃🏽

reclaiming joy: turning burnout into a creative revolution (& why you'll want to join)

tl;dr: i'm scaling back to one post per week (mondays only) starting october 28th to combat burnout and rediscover my creative spark. expect a mix of personal essays, deep dives, and q&as. paid subscribers: keep an eye out for exclusive content. everyone: share your weekly joys in the comments or as a reply to this email!!

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hola mis bellezas,

here we go again. my creative ferris wheel spins, and i'm dizzy.

the pattern's predictable: success (whatever that means) breeds obligation. suddenly, my passion project feels like homework. ugh.

rinse and repeat with journaling, music, tiktok - you name it. my adhd brain latches onto the obsession du jour, gorges itself, then moves on. i've burned through more lives than a cat with a death wish. it's less "nine lives" and more "nine hundred fleeting obsessions."

case in point: last week, i spent 48 hours straight creating a tiktok series on puerto rican politics. i was on fire, caffeinated as hell, and riding high on likes. then? poof. the spark vanished. i couldn't bring myself to edit the final video. it sits there, mocking me from my drafts folder.

real talk: life's pitching fastballs and i'm fumbling the bat.

work and school are tag-teaming me into oblivion. i've overextended myself everywhere else. i’ve come across some insanely beautiful opportunities to make an impact (and maybe even make some money) and the weight of potential letdowns hangs heavy. gym progress demands more sweat daily. and free time? honey, i barely remember what that feels like.

so, until semester's end (at least), i'm tapping the brakes and reassessing my focus here.

i've stacked commitments like a jenga tower in an earthquake zone. now i'm eyeing which piece i can remove without toppling everything. sadly, one wobbly block is this blog.

"what?!? don't ghost us!"

breathe, mis amores. i'm not vanishing into the ether.

i just need to rediscover the spark, you know? lately, i've noticed i'm chasing numbers and subscribers instead of chasing my weird, wonderful ideas. somehow, i veered off course and lost sight of why i started this substack.

and i’m doing this scared, okay? i'm terrified. what if i take this break and the words don't come back? what if you all forget about me? what if i let you, mis amores, down? but then i remember - fear is just creativity's clingy ex. and it's time to show it the door.

i miss the raw energy and fire i had months ago when i started the blog. but… i was also in the middle of summer and wasn't overcommitted. remember when i'd spill my guts about having a secret boyfriend? rant about the uptown planning community group? tell you all about tim walz? i want us to get back there. i want to go to there.

so, bear with me while i recalibrate, okay? i promise, when i return, it'll be with stories that set my soul on fire - and hopefully yours too. we're in this together, mis amores. let's make it count.

Popping in to say hello! Remember this is who you get mad at when you get mad at me. A cutie! LOL.

"so what's the plan now?"

bueno, here's the scoop, mi gente:

come october 28th, i'm back - but we're keeping it lean and mean. one post a week. yep, you heard right. uno.

mondays are our new jam. we're mixing it up with three flavors on rotation:

1. personal essays (free for all, 'cause sharing is caring)

2. deep dives (free preview, full feast for paid subs)

3. "ask this mess" (where you get to pick my brain, paid subs get the juicy details)

think of it as a gourmet meal for your mind. no more fast food content. just one hearty, home-cooked post to chew on all week.

to my ride-or-die paid subscribers: you're the secret sauce in this recipe. thank you for your support. as a token of my gratitude, i’m preparing a downloadable pdf that captures the entire puerto rico deep dive series, with more resources. it will be just for you.

homework time, mis amores: while i'm away, i challenge you to find one small, weird thing that brings you joy each week. share it in the comments. i could use some ideas, and i’ll gladly share mine with you.

so, what do you say? ready to join me on this once-a-week rollercoaster? it might be a slower ride, but i promise the view will be worth it.

hasta octubre, mis amores. let's make mondays something to look forward to, yeah?

edgard🌈✊🏽💖

p.s. thoughts? feelings? want to tell me i've lost my marbles? drop a comment or reply to this email!